Sunday, May 21, 2006

Confuzzled


I wrote an entry this morning and I posted it. Upon further thought, I made the decision to pull it... I guess that it was a mixture of me being ashamed of what I did, and just not being ready to have a reminder of last night... I guess that I am a little bit of a coward for it, but I am still not sure how to articulate the events that occurred last night. I mean what I wrote explained the mechanics of what happened, but not the subtext, or the emotion of any of the people involved. Its just to fresh... Maybe in a few days, I will try and tackle last nights events again.
I know that a lot of people have been reading and commenting on my blog, and I thank you guys for all of your support and advice. But I am also pretty excited that no one really commented on what I had to say this morning. I hate to keep on bringing it up and not talking about it. I sound like a freak!
Umm in other news, one of the comments that "perrin" left in a previous post, said that I should get in contact with the guy I spazzed out on in HS. I actually did call him about a month ago. Well I called his cell phone, and his sister answered. Apparently he graduated with his Master's Degree in Education and he is now working with this organization that brings computer technology and education to third world countries. He has been gone for a year and he is coming home in July because he has accepted a teaching position at a school. I e-mailed him, and he does not seem at all annoyed with how ridiculous I acted the last time that I saw him. I think that he can be a really good friend. He has always been a man that I could look up to. When I was younger he was exactly what I aspired to be. I am very happy that he didn't call me a loser and then tell me that he never wanted to speak with me again.
Once again i am sorry for my lameness, but I did make a new picture of self-depreciation and good humor! Because I am a funny guy, and I want you guys to laugh, sooo enjoy...

13 comments:

Josh said...

Hahaha that is an awsome picture! It really sounds like you had a very tough night yesterday. I am sorry that you are having issues articulating your feelings. I hope that it wasn't too traumatizing. I am very curious to hear what happened. But I also know what it means to have something be to fresh to talk about. I am happy to see that you still have your sense of humor intacted, becuase that really is an awesome picture! I laughed pretty hard! Contat me sometime if you want to talk ever...

Asher said...

When things get intense, its alright to have a sense of humor about them, but make sure that you aren't using your humor to avoid actually feeling the full range of emotions that you should be going through. That picture deffinitely did make me laugh, but its not that funny if that's how you really feel about yourself. You are not a "dick face" You messed up, sometimes we all do, don't beat yourself up. The only reason why you should beat yourself up is if you stop feeling bad for incidents like whatever happened last night. Good luck with dealing!

bradley said...

You are really stressed out by whatever happened to you yesterday! I hope that you are doing alright. I really laughed when I say your picture. Its really creative, I have never actually pictured an actual dick when I thought of the word "dick face" hahaha! That was cute! Great creativity man.

Mikey said...

wonder what its like to be in your head! I love this picture! I can not fathom for the life of me how some one could come up with such an image though! hahaha I fell on the floor laughing! U R great man. Sorry that you are having such a hard time, but U R one funny cat!!

Tommy said...

FUNNY!! HAHAHA! I love your sense of humor man! that is the funniest picture that I have ever seen in my entire sunday! hahaa. I am sorry that you had a crappy evening... I hope that things start to look up for you. Don't stress it if you don't have to man!

Marc said...

So I read your blog this morning, but I did not leave a comment, because I did not know what to say. I think that you are feeling the correct ammount of anxiety for pulling what you did! I also think that a lesser man would not have thought twice if he were in your shoes. I like you becuase you seem like a good guy. Don't let this drag you down because yeah on one hand, you did a bad thing, but on the other hadn you recognize it. Kudos for you!

kai said...

that's funny! hahaha! There's a dick on that face!

aaron said...

I love your pictures! They are so unique! This one had me laughing my ass off!! You are awesome man! keep it up! O yeah the picture almost made me completely forget that I am VERY curious about whats going on with the post that you erased! I am sooo sorry that I missed it!

Brandon said...

I like how the color of your picture matches your blog template! haha Thats a great picture! you have an interesting imagination. I would have never been able to think of something like that! Well I hope that you are feeling better about yourself right about now. Heep your sense of humor dude!

Nathan k said...

You totally make me smile dude! hahaa. I love your sense of humor. Don't ever change! We're still on for the beach @ 7 right??? Call my cell later on 2day if you want to carpool, I'll drive!

Brecken said...

I did not read your post that you deleted, but I can definitely say that you are being ro hard on yourself. I have noticed that this is a common theme in a lot of your blogs. You seem to put the weight of the worlkd on your shoulders, and you try really hard to please everybody. But you know that they man who tries to please everyone ends up pleasing noone. Just keep in mind that nobody is expected to live a perfect life, we can only do our best to live a moral and happy life. I think that you have a great sense of humor and a flare for art. I love how you choose to express yourself, and I love your art. Thanks for sharing, you rock!

Jessica said...

Wow you are smart, funny and artistic. You are everything that I go for in a guy! I wish that you were straight sooo much! PLUS you have a hot body, because you are a surfer! If you ever want to be with a hot chick, you could have me! I am kidding, it really seems like you have really made a choice in your life. It seems like you are going to have a complicated time a head of you. I hope that whatever happened to you that night wasn't to bad to make you feel crappy for this long. I love to read your blog, and I think that we would make really good friends! Email me @ masticating@msn.com. We will hanf out, I live in West LA its right next to UCLA. I love your blog, and you rock!

frank said...

I can definitely tell that you are a man that in fact, LOVES THE COCK!! Hahaha I think that its something that we might have in common.