Tuesday, May 23, 2006

In PAIN!!

A few weeks ago I had a really bad fall on my surfboard. It aggravated a very old injury, that has been getting progressively worse for the last 3 or 4 years. Basically my wipeout was the catalyst for pain, because ever since then, my leg/back has hurt twice as much as it did the day before. Well that was until Monday, when I tried to get out of bed and I feel on the floor because I couldn't walk. Lucky for me I just went for an MRI last week and the results came in the very day that I reached the heights of my pain. My sciatic nerve is getting pressure put on it from a misshapen disk that is out of place, I think... I am not sure, because I couldn't concentrate on what the doctor was saying because of the fact that I was trying my hardest to not cry in front of the man because of all the pain that I was in. Anyway, I am not supposed to go surfing for atleast a month, and I am supposed to stay in bed for the next two weeks! I haven't been to the ocean in a week, and I am starting to go through some serious withdraws! I am depressed, I have no appetite, and I can't sleep. A person that didn't know me very well would probably assume that my significant other had just ripped my heart out, and in a way, they would be right! I am pretty devastated at the moment, mostly because I know that I can go a month without a lot of things, like watching TV, going to the movies, even having sex! But I haven't gone a month without surfing ever since I have started. I tried to go surfing but my knee wouldn't support my weight! I am really depressed and I have no idea how I am going to get through this.
It is hard to explain why this is such a big deal. Its just that surfing is a way that I deal with my stress and my extra energy. I get out my aggression and my anger in the ocean. And without an outlet for all of my frustrations, I am just not sure what I am going to do. I am not very experienced with dealing with my emotions like a normal person, because I have always had my surfboard. I am hoping that I can just take up masturbation as my main form of exercise, and stress relief. My mind is pretty much all over the place right now, so I am going to call all of my stoner friends and get completely BAKED. Then I am going to take some muscle relaxers and pass out as I dream about the beach.

3 comments:

Randy said...

That sounds awful man! You must be in a lot of pain! I sincerely hope that you get better. Good luck.

Asher said...

I hate pain. You didn't sound very loopy at all in your ramblings though. Just thought that you should know that you made a pretty cogent statement. I like the picture, because it really shows exactly what is wrong. I don't need any further clarification! I hope that you feel better soon...

Marc said...

You make me laugh soooo freakin much! I am sorry that you are soooo depressed about not being able to go surfing. I have an activity where I release all of my stress also. I go to the gym. If I couldn't go to the gym for a month, I think that I would be very upset also. Just sitting there getting fat! EWWW! I am sorry that you are going through a hard time. But I am telling your know, masturbation is nooo substitute for surfing no matter how hard U beat it! U will probably break it off b4 anything else! Sooo, maybe you should just try working on your art some more! Good luck with whatever U decide though!