Saturday, July 29, 2006

Have I mentioned that I love EDDIE!?

So I was feeling pretty crappy today. We had the last of our ceremonies for my grandmother on Thursday night, and we burried her Friday morning. I think that when I laid a flower on her grave I finally accepted that she wasn't ever going to come back. I was done hiding from my feelings and I let myself be a mess in front of my whole family, and it felt good.

After the funeral I went home to just have a completely lazy day. I was looking through my mail when I noticed a package that Eddie had sent me! You guys have no idea how excited I was to see mail from him! I know that he just left a few days ago, but it already feels like I haven't seen him in forever and a year! Of course I ripped the package open and I saw that he had made me a DVD. I also noticed that he had sent this locally the day that he left. So I was curious to see why he hadn't just given it to me.

I popped the DVD into the player and I started to watch it. I am sooo madly in love with this guy. I am still smiling! Basically it was him sitting on his bed talking to the camera like it was me. He told me that he had timed the arrival of the DVD to be on the same day as my grandmother's funeral, which it was, and that he was very sad that he could not be there. I started crying because I missed my grandmother and I was sad that Eddie wasn't there to hold me.

For the first 5 minutes he totally just laid on the sappiness as thick as he could make it. Then he did something that I totally didn't expect. He pulled out a letter and he started to read it. At first I didn't know why he was reading this letter, and I didn't fully understand what it was about. Then slowly I started to realize that it was a letter that I had written him when we were juniors in High School. At the time we weren't really friends, but we had the same advanced art classes and we were on the Golf team together. So when I found out that his grandfather had died I felt really bad for him. I didn't know what to say to him, so I just wrote him a letter telling him that even though we weren't "best friends" I would always be around if he needed somebody to talk to or just hang out with. It wasn't anything special, I just wanted him to know that I was thinking of him without actually walking up to him and telling him so.

Once I realized what he was reading I started to sob out loud! I could not believe that he kept that letter. We never actually hung out after that, but he aknowledged the fact that I wrote it and he thanked me for it. I took it as a sign that he didn't want me to get in his business, so I backed off after that.

After he was done he put down the letter and he told me that just knowing there was so much kindness in the world made him feel so much better. He wanted me to know that if I could open my heart up to him like this when we were virtual strangers, the least that he could do is offer the same to me now that we are in love. He told me that even though I said that I wanted him to go back to Hong Kong, all that I have to do is pick up the phone and he will be back here in a heart beat. I am what matters most to him right now.

Like I said, my man knows how to lay it on nice and thick! haha. Just when I thought that he couldn't throw any more surprises my way, he picks up my guitar and he tells me that he made this video because he wanted me to smile today. So he was going to sing me my favorite song. Which is Jack Johnson's Better Together.

I smiled. I laughed. And when it was all over I was okay. I called Eddie and I thanked him for being the best boyfriend that any loser like me has ever had. And then he tried to feed me some bull crap about how he was the lucky one, but I live on planet Earth, so I wasn't buying it. I thanked him and told him that we were just going to have to agree to disagree. I am semi-tempted to post Eddie singing to me, but Eddie might get upset. So this is Jack singing it, which is almost just as good, but he's no Eddie (Which isn't to say that I don't love Jack also! I went to my first Jack concert in 2002 back when it was just me and this wierd fat chick that drank to much at the bar. All the way until now when he packs entire stadiums. Plus Jack is a surfer and he is also an awesome director (he makes surf movies))!



13 comments:

Asher said...

I love this song! I also think that I am falling in love with your boyfriend... If I ever find this man I think that I might just have to fight you for him.

Kiel said...

That's perfet! You guys fight it out and then I will sucker punch the winner and have eddia all to myself!

I would have to agree with you dude, Eddie is a great guy and you are lucky to have him. But I also think that you are pretty great yourself. So I am thinking that you are both very lucky and you probably deserve each other.

Jason said...

I had no idea that Jack Johnson directed movies. That is neat. I am a huge Jack fan, though i am nowhere near as big of a fan as you I guess... But if figures that you surfers would know about other surfers! Its just this whole network of coolness that I won't ever be able to access.

Your boyfriend sounds like a great guy and I would have to agree with kiel that you guys deserve each other. I believe that you get back whatever you put out in the world. You are obviously one of those guys that just oozes positivity to the point where you want to light them on fire! But somehow you still come off endearing... Like a carebear!

Anonymous said...

Sorry about your grandmother, I read your last few posts and she really did seem like an amazing person. I hope that you are feeling better.

Your boyfriend sounds like a great guy and I am sure that he is helping you get through this difficult time. Thanks for sharing

Trevor said...

Wow that's sooo adorable! I have never had a boy sing me a song. I think that I am going to have to find a boyfriend and then refuse to please him until he sings for me!

Anonymous said...

You are such a fucking train wreck! It's like there is always something that is making your life a mess and all that you can do is bitch about it! I used to enjoy reading your blog, but lately you make me want to go and slit my wrists! Man up. Your boyfriend must really crave chaos because you are just one disaster after another. He must be equally fucked up.

Stupid Homos

Trevor said...

"anonymous (#2)" I don't say this very often, but I would totally just beat the crap out of you in a dark ally if I ever met you. You are a dick. Don't post a comment here if you are going to be so negative. You have no idea how great Eric reall is. If you did you wouldn't be acting like such an angry repressed fag! He hasn't said anything to piss you off so why don't you just back the fuck off!?

Josh said...

Umm yeah I agree with Trevor, I am much more of a lover than a fighter, but I would definitely have to join in on this beating because Eric doesn't deserve crap like this froma loser like you!

Marc said...

Do I need a secret decoder ring to join the, "I hate Anonymous fan club"? What an ass wipe. Eric don't even pay attention to such negativity!

downunderpants said...

One of my favs too!! Do you know what would make me feel "better"??? By saying that I said something nice instead of something horrible!! I'm still getting hate mail! :-(

Gray said...

Eddie's sentimentality is, in a word, beautiful!

You have too many positive-feeling people out here to, for one minute, pay attention to the negative *one*!

Stay happy!

dan said...

yes

Dan said...

I stumbled upon your blog a couple of weeks ago and have now started going through it. Eddie sounds like the ideal guy and that whole present deal is probably the sweetest thing I've ever heard of in my life. Better Together is my favorite song too, I had to do a double take when I read that line haha