Hospitals suck

I just got out of the hospital after a little over 4 weeks of being stuck in one. Well I guess that’s not entirely true. I was in the hospital for a week and a half, then when they thought I was safe to go home BAM right back in for another week or so, back home for like 7 hours, and then another week in the hospital. I fucking hate my body because every chance it gets, it just stops working on me! It pisses me off to no end how many people out there take their functioning vital organs for granted and spend their days sitting on their asses watching bad tv and eating shit all day.

I am sick and tired of of this craptastic body of mine that keeps screwing me over every chance it gets! I’d like to go 6 months without seeing the inside of a hospital, but for some reason for me, it’s more likely that I will grow wings and fly. Just in case nobody could tell I’M FUCKING ANGRY! I am sick to death of all these people coddling me like I am some kind of helpless invalid, my whole body hurts all the time, and did i mention ALL THE FUCKING PEOPLE CONSTANTLY FAWNING OVER ME ALL THE FUCKING TIME!?

Brad is pissed at me right now, I feel crazy guilty because Tyler dropped his summer classes to come home and help take care of me, and I feel like a total prick because when my dad came to visit me I got so upset that it took the doctors almost an hour to stabilize my oxygen levels. I just wish that when I got sick like this I could be locked in solitary confinement and be refused any visitors what so ever! I don’t really even know what I am trying to say here. I am just upset and frustrated and it’s all just building and BUILDING with absolutely no hope for release.