Brad decided to come with me on my little excursion across the Atlantic. I was super psyched that he asked to come, especially since things were still a little awkward between us after a month of me being such a prick to him. Brad’s amazing in his capacity to forgive and move on. He understands me in a way that really scares me because I never really thought anybody would be capable of knowing me the way he does and not want out. I knew he was special from the beginning; here we are 3 years later and I am pretty sure that he’s into me too.
Even though I was pretty sure that Brad had forgiven me and moved on from my month of being an asshole; I still felt like it was important to acknowledge his saintly act of forgiveness and really hammer in the fact that I am truly sorry for the way I acted. He told me he understood and that he forgave me. We ended up spending the whole night catching up with each other’s lives. It’s been way too long since the last we we had a conversation like this, and I really missed it! Sometimes I forget that Brad needs me as much as I need him because in my eyes he’s just so freakin brave, strong and confident. But every once in awhile he says something that really makes me pause and realize that he sees me the same way I see him.
Is it possible to fall even more in love with somebody you’ve already been in love with for 3 years? Fuck that! I know it is because last night I totally did. I have no idea what I would do with myself if I didn’t have Brad by my side.
The art show was awesome! It was an even bigger deal than I thought it would be. I even saw my agent there because apparently he represented a few of the people in the show. Seeing my piece here among all these accomplished and talented artists was both humbling and a HUGE ego boost. It really validated the fact that I am on the right path, but at the same time showed me that I still have a very long way to go before I am at their level.
At some point my agent cornered me and started doing that really scary thing where he intimidates and threatens me with compliments and menacing smiles. I am convinced that it’s an art form he’s mastered in a way no other man on the planet has! He’s been trying to get me to do some more commercial work and I have been passively resisting him (read ignoring his emails and phone calls) but I got the sense that if I didn’t accept some of these jobs soon he’s going to stop calling. So it looks like I am meeting with an ad firm at the beginning of next week, YAY ME(that’s sarcasm in case anybody out there in cyberspace missed it)!
Brad and I arrive home Monday morning. We’ve actually been here since last Monday but I didn’t publish my last post pre-Europe until Wed. because I forgot, then I figured I wasn’t going to NOT publish it, but I was too lazy to fix the post so it made more sence. So there you go! It’s 7 am and I am about to begin my one hour stretching routine and then begin packing all my stuff. It’s going to be a fun day traveling to the airport!
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8 comments:
Brad seems like a really great guy. Its heart warming to know you can fall even in deeper in love with someone even though you have been together so long.
*I can't believe I used the words heartwarming*
You never know how things are gonna turn out when love's concerned. It's great you have such a mature boyfriend and such a healthy relationship. It's true about the part where you talk about seeing the best in him and him seeing the best in you. That's what love is all about. You have a spectacular thing happening to you.
You deserve to be happy. I am so happy for you! I can't wait for you to get back to LA I miss you lots bud!
This brought a smile to my face. It was so sweet and hopeful and i loved it! You have found the kind of love people spend their entire lives looking for. Remember to honor and cherish it for as long as you can.
You two are so sweet. I go through so many different emotions when you talk about your boyfriend and the closeness you guys share with each other. I am in awe, I am jealous, i am so very happy for you, and a million other things. I wish you continued happiness and all the love you can stand. Thank you for sharing this with all of your readers.
You are all really too much! I am blushing like a school girl and it's really unsettling! Everybody, thank you for your kind words and good wishes, they've reminded me how lucky I am.
Congrats on the show homie! You really worked hard to get where you are and this is all just you getting what you deserve. You are just as talented as any of the other artists in the show or else you wouldn't have been there bud. It's ok to be modest but you are only lying to yourself if you don't think you are on the same level as the guys you were in the show with.
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