Friday, September 12, 2008 a rockstar!

I am fucking exhausted! I haven't a decent night's rest for over a week (since last Wed!) and not 12 hours ago I got off a 16 hour flight. So needless to say, I fucking hurt! I am so tired I can't even sleep. Last night I hosted an event so I litterally had to go from the airport to the party and had to change in the back seat of the car on the way. I must have smelled soooo bad, there are no words to even describe it. Not only had I just gotten off a 16 hour flight, but I haven't showered since Tuesday just cuz its been one of those weeks.

The party went till 2, and of course I had to stay later for all the obligatory schmoozing I am required to do. I didn't actually get to climb into my bed until a little after 3:45am. I guess the end result turned out much better than expected. I mean I seriously was expecting to pass out in the bathroom and wake up the next morning with everybody pissed at me! Instead I lasted the whole night, and I think I did a semi decent job. Now it's 7am and I am wide awake, but only in the sense that I just can't go back to sleep.

I have a lot on my mind. I am having lunch today with my employers and other corporate types and they are going to try sell me on a job I already told them I have no interest in taking. I am trying to find the perfect words to sound grateful and flattered, yet completely uninterested. I just really want to make the point that I have no desire pursuing a career path in the direction they are suggesting. It has nothing to do with money and everything to do with my personal comfort levels, which I know for most people are completely insane and extremely contradictory but I am too old and too stubborn to change!

I need a fucking joint.

1 comment:

Andrew said...

Well, I doubt you're too old to change, but I think what you said, "It has nothing to do with [the] money, [but] everything to do with my personal comfort levels," is perfect to tell them. Something along the lines of, "I really appreciate it but [insert the above quote here]. Thank you though."

Good luck!