Sunday, June 18, 2006

My weekend



It was a bitter-sweet weekend. I had a lot of fun, but there were a few things that sort of irked me. I guess that it all started at the first graduation party that I went to on Friday. It was for my friend Corey. He Was a year a head of me in high school, but we were pretty good friends because we played the same sports in HS (Varsity Surf and Golf). When he went off to UCLA, I went to a bunch of college parties and it is where I met Jake, the first guy that I ever kissed. However, the more I accept the fact that I am gay, the more I realize that Corey and I can not be friends. He is the most intense homophobe on the planet! Talking about gay people makes him so uncomfortable that he gets all fidgety and leaves the room. He just can not accept that there is a valid reason for people to be gay, and there is no changing his mind. I know that he values my friendship, and if I were to tell him that I am gay, it would cause him to seriously reevaluate his views on the matter.

But I am also pretty sure that he might want to fight me to prove his manliness because I have seen him naked a lot. That a very big fear of his, that a gay guy will see him naked. I mean it wasn't like I was checking him out or anything, its just that guys that surf together occasionally see each other naked. There is no avoiding it. Either you forgot to bring towels, or the moldy one in the trunk that you keep for emergencies just smells to bad to use, so we all just drop trow and change into our wetsuit! And everybody knows that you have to go commando in your wetsuit. Its not a big deal between friends, unless one of them is gay.

Anyway there were girls and beers and I kept on getting hit on and I did the unthinkable! I made out with one of them! It was pleasant enough, but I felt completely wretched! In my head I was thinking WTF are you doing!? SO when she reached for my penis I told her that I was seeing somebody and I was sorry but I should not have even let things get this far! It was weird how much kissing a girl could make me want to kill myself. But in the girl's defense I think it had a lot less to do with the fact that she was a chick, and more to do with the fact that I had just did something that compromised my integrity just to fit in!

I got up and I left the apartment because I needed to clear my head. I guess that Tyler saw me leave, because before I knew it he was running up behind me. He said that he saw me kiss that girl and he was pretty shocked, but he understood why I did it, and he thought that I was being to hard on myself for doing it. Well of course I was being to hard on myself! That is what I do! But that did not change the fact that I felt like crap for doing it. I told Tyler that I was taking off because I needed to go home and get myself together before the graduation ceremony in the morning.

Saturday was pretty much like Friday. The ceremony was a yawn, and then the after party was as crazy as anything else that was hosted by Corey. There were beer, bongs and bitches. I guess that it was fun for a little while, but the whole party made me feel very uncomfortable. I grew out of the whole drink until I pass out stage when I was in the 10th grade, and this was just to much of the same old shit. I think that the thing that finally made me leave the party was when an old girlfriend from HS tried to hit on me.

I left the party and I went straight over to Eddie's house. I just needed to be GAY for awhile. I walked in and I kissed him. I think that we just stood there kissing for a very long time, and then we went to the bedroom. It was the best sex that we have ever had! I just felt this really big urge to prove my gayness as much as humanly possible. There were a few seconds between leaving the party and getting to Eddie's where I almost thought that making out with a girl might not be so bad... Ewww! hahaha

I woke up this morning thinking that I would hit the beach and spend my whole day surfing at El Porto. But I had 4 voicemails that seemed to say something different. The aunts had been calling all morning because they wanted to grab some breakfast. I thought that it would be a great time for them to meet Eddie! So I woke him up, and he was looking so freakin cute that we went for a quickie that ended up taking 45 minutes.

My aunts were all over Eddie! They wanted to know everything about him. They kept on asking him all sorts of highly inappropriate questions following them up with even more probing and inappropriate questions! At one point my aunt Nang asked which one of us was the top and which one was the bottom! My aunts have absolutely no tact or shame what so ever! FUCKING LESBIANS! We had a good time even though my aunts were raunchy and loud. It felt so good to enjoy a meal with my boyfriend and have no pretense at the table what so ever. I could tell that Eddie was really enjoying the openness also. Neither of us ever really get to be in a situation like this, and its just a whole different world than the one that we actually live in.

After we were done with the meal, my aunts invited us to go with them to my grandmother's house but I wasn't ready to attack that monster yet. So I told them as much, the Eddie and I took off. It was such a nice morning. I wish that I could use a stronger word than, "nice", but it really fits what our morning was. As Eddie was driving us back home I looked at him and I realized that I am madly in love with this guy! And when he looked over at me I knew that he was just as in love with me. It was like he knew what I was thinking because he reached over and kissed me on the cheek and then he told me so! Just like that, he said, "I love you.". And then everything was right in the world. I know that we have only been with each other for 3 weeks (to the day) but we have known each other since before puberty. Plus these past 3 weeks have been very intense for both of us.

We spent the rest of the day spooning and watching movies. It was nice, but I still felt the urge to catch some waves. So I grabbed my board and on my way out, Eddie decided to join me. Well when we arrived at the beach, I got my clothes off, but I didn't quite get into my wetsuit... We were on a private beach and we weren't worried about anybody seeing us since Eddie's dad owns the beach. I am sad though because I didn't get to surf today! I broke a tradition, but for some reason its not really making me feel that bad... Anyway, this is a picture of our clothes, because this is something that I want to remember forever. I love Eddie.

18 comments:

Michael said...

You are indeed a lucky man! To have a great family that is so open and accepting, and to have a man who is obviously crazy about you - dude, you have it all!

Be well -
Michael in Seattle

Josh said...

Awww a man in love is always so cute! I am so happy for you, because you really deserve this. That friend of yours, Corey, sounds like an asshole. I understand that you guys have a long history, but if you know that things aren't going to work out between the two of you after you come out with him, maybe you shouldn't bother with the friendship. You deserve better people in your life than this guy. I am sure that he won't even be that big of a loss to you. Becuase you already have a plethora of people that are for you. You rock so much! Keep on living the good life.

WhiteflameNZ said...

Jealous does not describe how I feel about you and Eddie! But im so happy for you, you sound like you fit together perfectly.

Kai said...

What an awesome sunday! I am so completely jealous of you at this moment! But I think that its cool, because you sound like the kind of guy who really deserves it. One more thing, if all of your clothes are on that little wall, what are you wearing!?

Asher said...

I wonder what it would be like to have a gaggle of lesbian aunts. It sounds like a good time. I also wonder what it would be like to have my own man to ome home to everyday! You have it made in the shade. I am glad to hear that even though your weekend started off pretty crappy, it ended on a high note. I love it when things work out for the best!

Brad said...

I want somebody to love now also! That was such a beautiful post. At first I thought that it was going to be sad because of all the crap you had to deal with beause of that friend Corey! But it seemed like the second you went back to Eddie you found your center, and everything was alright. That is great. It's so perfect that you found someone and that you guys bonded with each other so well and so fast. I am extremely happy for you and I wish you and Eddie the best of luck.

Marc said...

This Corey doesn't seem like he makes you feel very good about yourself. He seems like a very toxic person. I am sad that you have to end a friendship with somebody that you have known for so long. But if he is going to be somebody that you think will possibly get violent with you, I would definitely think about avoiding him at all costs.

But that second half of your post totally gave me a completely different feeling! It was awesome to hear about your aunts and Eddie. They seem like a crazy bunch of women who would be awesome to share a meal with. Then that whole love thing was so sweet! I am so happy for you. I think that you guys sound really good for each other. I am completely jealous and I am kind of hoping that I wake up in the morning and I am you for the day. haha.

Congrats!

Craig said...

You had a whole bunch of sex today, and you didn't have to pick up a guy in a public restroom! I am completely jealous! Not only about your effortless sex, but also your totally awesome lesbian aunts! Can I trad you like 2 of them for some staunch protestant republican spinsters? They are tons of fun to play trivial pursuit with! haha.

Terry said...

What a way to end a week and begin another! First, your aunts sound great. Just like two old queens I know that want to show you that you can be open with them, even in public.

Second, of course I'm truly happy that you and Eddie are getting closer each day. Instead of surfing on Father's Day, maybe you could make having sex with him your Father's Day ritual. ;)

Third and finally, unfortunately you were probably right when you said Corey might want to fight you (if he found out you are gay). I've had that experience with two different former friends ("former" because when they found out I was gay I never heard from nor saw them again). Both guys acted just like your friend Corey: booze and girls all the time for one and the other married right out of high school. Both would get a strange look on his face, get fidgity, spit out something like how much they hated fags, and leave the room. I only found out at a later time that they had been (on different occasions, of course) raped... both by older neighborhood boys that they idolized (one was 11 and was victimized by a 14 year old; the other was 12 and victimized by a 17 year old). Long story short: both are vehemently anti-homosexual. Might be your friend Corey's problem; might not. I just thought I'd relate it for what it's worth.

Ralph said...

Great post! Just wanted to say that I am very happy for you! That sounds like the best sunday ever. I hope that you can have a lot more just like that. I love your blog and I think that you are an amazing guy.

Anonymous said...

I love the way you ended your post! ITs so sweet. Your family sounds great, and that breakfast with your family was the coolest thing that I ever heard!

Trevor said...

Good for you! You started off having an awful weekend, but you didn'tlet that get you down and it ended in the best way possible. I am so ccompletely happy for you! That is so great. That Corey does not seem like he is worth your time. I get that he is an old friend, but that doesn't make him a good friend.

Jeremy said...

This Corey situation is very tricky. I feel lilke you need to give your friend a chance just as long as you are not afraid for your safety. It seems like you only surround yourself with people that genuinly care for you. So I think that even if being gay goes against what this guy believes, you might make him think twice about it.

Your aunts are great! i want a couple of my own just like them. There are no gay people in my family, so even though my family is okay with me being gay, its still awkward at the table. That meal that you shared with your family made me feel a little bit jealous. I am also pretty excited for you and your new love Eddie. I hope that ou guys are very happy with eah other.

Anonymous said...

That's great. You have such an awesome family and boyfriend! Some guys get all the luck!

BASTARD!

haha j/k

Sam said...

i love that piture! You leave everythibg to the imagination with a shot like that! That whole dynamic that you had with your family at the breakfast table was so wonderful! You are so blessed to have a family like that.

You and Eddie sound great for each other. You guys really know how to enjoy yourselves. I am so happy for you, good luck with your continued happiness.

Jason said...

I feel like everybody else has already said what I am thining. I am happy for you, I am jealous of you and I think that Corey is a dick, but he atleast deserves a chance before you write him off completely.

I want your aunts for the day! it would be so great to be completely free and open with my family. Well I say that now, but if I were to actually be put in that situation I am almost positive that I would not know waht to do.

Eddie sounds great! You two seem perfect of r each other. Now excuse me while I sob into my pillow because your life is so much better than mine.

Anonymous said...

I love Sundays like that....
-spt

Brian said...

When I grow up I want to be just like you! Lets just forget about the fact taht I am 10 years older than you are...