Friday, January 04, 2008

Me and the Boy


It's extremely difficult to fully explain the dynamic between Bradley and I without actually knowing us. Originally we were drawn together because athletically we relate to each other in a big way. Our goals and struggles as competitive athletes and our big ol' homo tendencies bonded us instantly, but as our relationship unfolded we realized there was so much more we had in common than our love for athletics.

It's hard for me to express my feelings because most of my life I have done my best to surpress them. Articulating these thoughts are damn near impossible, because until recently I could have sworn they didn't even exist! I never knew it was possible to find a person that could understand me so thoroughly despite the fact that they didn't grow up with me. Eddie and I had this amazing bond and understanding of each other because we had known each other since before our balls dropped. Finding something similar in a person I haven't even known a year seemed pretty much impossible. Yet here I am...

I really am in love and I am more than a little scared. Not because I am worried Bradley won't feel the same. I know he does. It's just this fucking timing! As always in life, it really sucks, and I feel like there's this huge cloud of doom looming over my head. I have some serious thinking to do and some big decisions to make and I am not looking forward to any of it. If anybody out there has discovered a way to have their cake and eat it too. Please share the wealth! I am dying over here.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are one of those select few hotties that look sexy both in and out of clothes. Congratulations, now everybody has a reason to hate you!

Reggie said...

You know how to wear pink. ;-)

Trevor said...

I would have to strongly disagree with anonymous, you are much more attractive with your clothes on! Especially when you put on the big boy clothes. You should totally do that more often!

Jason said...

You think WAY too much. You have a couple of very good things going for your. Yeah, it's going to be hard to keep it all together. But if you want it enough I know you will be able to manage all the things you have going on. It's all about communication dude! And we all know how much you love to talk, so you got this one in the bag.

RGB said...

I must admit I do look good in a tie if I say so myself. Thanks for noticing! Let's just keep it our little secret that Tyler picked out my clothes because I couldn't dress myself to save my life! haha.

Anonymous said...

I'd hit that!